Dear Magic 8 Ball: Will I ever fully recover from this herniated disc?

Outlook is cloudy.

Despite the back pain I am going to forge ahead with my running. Too much muscle loss, too much fat gained. It’s time to get back to business. My friends have an awesome Rim2Rim2Rim trip planned this Fall and I am going to miss it. I have tried not to give it much thought but there is a little tinge of jealousy because this is exactly the kind of trip I have always wanted to do ever since I peaked over the edge of the Grand Canyon on an early morning 20 years ago. I looked over the edge and soaked it all in for about an hour before deciding that in order to really do the place justice, I needed to return at a later date, prepared to spend days here.

It continues to wait for me.

For now I am enjoying starting from square one again. No, really. There is a pleasure to be had there. You have to completely erase where you once were and think of it in terms of returning to the beginning, getting a second (or in my case, third) chance to get things right. There are so many lessons I have learned and this time I am not going to gloss over or ignore anything.

I’m running between 15-20 minutes at a shot a couple of times a week right now. I am hitting new milestones like adding a few more minutes to the run, or running the entire time without a walk break such as I did this morning. I’m even waking up extra early in the morning to run. Last week my husband asked why I kept getting up so early, I told him I was “in training” to wake up early. It paid off. This week I’m up by 5:00 am, grab a cup of coffee and hit the streets. My old routine feels so good all over again.

With this renewed excitement I had another great surprise this afternoon. What runner can resist new shoes? I ask you that. I may not be bouncing up and down but I can’t wait to tear open that box and check out my goodies. Today the FedEx man delivered three pair of shoes from Scott shoes. There is a minimalist road shoe (T2C) in a lovely bright blue/yellow combination, and two trail shoes to check out (eRide Grip2 and eRide Aztec3). I think I’ll check out the trail shoes this weekend up on South Mountain, even if I can only go a mile or two, at least I’m getting out. I am also testing out their Support2 model which, so far, has been great.  Reviews forthcoming.

It’s pretty crazy, this life we all live. I know mine has taken me in so many various directions throughout my life. I’ve never really minded where it took me, in fact, I loved  catching onto the tailwinds of life and going wherever it blew me. I ended up wherever the wind stopped. For a while I traveled around the country as an archaeologist. I dug up ancient people and learned that they weren’t too different from you and me in the here and now. I found my way through Eastern Europe at a time when they were only beginning to grasp their new-found freedom. As a chef I once told Mr. Bulgari (yes, the Bulgari) that breakfast starts at 7:00 am and no I would not serve him any earlier than that. I’ve climbed mountains in West Virginia, gone for long drives across the desert, spent beautiful nights in Canyon de Chelly, partied hearty with mountain people in Romania, run marathons, and also sold my creations at craft malls. I was raised being told that I could do whatever I wanted to do and that is exactly what I did.

Life has a way of working out the way it is supposed to.

… or is that our interpretation of it?

Whatever, my past year has taken a lot of unexpected turns. Looking back, a year ago I finished my first ultra, the HAT 50k. Thirsty for more, I planned to return in 2012, and conquer my first 50 miler as well. Neither of those things happened.

A month after HAT I ran the Boston Marathon. Boston was a mere curiosity for me, a quest to discover why so many people wanted to run this particular race. What I learned was that it was just another event. What people want is the prestige of running a race which for most people is tough to qualify for and probably the nearest thing to the Olympics as us regular people are ever going to get. Personally, I can take it or leave it.

My next new hurdle was to take on the role of race director. I organized and pulled off a very successful first year trail race, the Quadzilla 15k. I love these trails more than anything and hope to get back to them some time this year.

A month later I found out I had a herniated disc. Drugs, epidurals, and many therapy sessions ensued but ended up not helping very much. I am now resigned to the fact that I will most likely undergo surgery. A year after the symptoms first started I still cannot sleep through the night and experience horrible pain. Enough is enough.

My newest adventure sort of fell into my lap. An acquaintance at Rodale asked if I had interest in a position at Running Times magazine. Sure, pass my name along, I’m open to hearing about what’s what. I am now a week in to my new role as Web Producer for Running Times. And this goes back to how wild it is where life takes us but being open to the possibilities that come our way. When I started running six years ago I never imagined I’d be here doing what I’m doing. I was a stay at home mom with two toddlers and needed some down time and exercise. Two years ago an idea began to take bud in my mind and I started up my website, Lehigh Valley Running Scene. I shun fame and notoriety but somehow have managed to become the leading information resource on the local running scene. Between picking up a running habit to becoming a full-fledged runner who is currently sidelined I have discovered a love for the sport and a passion to be involved.

As for running, I get out once a week, if that, for a 15 minute jog through the neighborhood. It seems that is all my body can take right now. I’m terrified of the pain I dealt with last September. Will the running bring it back? I’m hoping to build up to two 15-minute runs a week and take it from there.

Stay tuned.

Thanks for the encouragement, guys! I appreciate it.

Bob, I totally get what you’re saying. I’ve pondered the same thing at various times. Most likely, my motivation in 2009 came from just having healed from my stress fracture and really wanting to run my first marathon. I achieved that late in 2009 and went on to have a pretty stellar 2010. Not sure I’ll ever touch that year as far as the success I began to have in my racing and training, and not too sure I even care to.

My main motivation these days is going to boil down to whether or not I want to feel good about myself in a bathing suit or not.

Okay, so … this week I DID work out. In fact, right after I posted “The Status of My Running” I pulled out my new training book (The New Rules of Lifting for ABs by Lou Schuler who happens to live right next door to me) and had an amazing workout. I was sore for the following three days! This morning I met up with my forever awesome running partner, Maureen, and she joined me in her cooldown for a 2 mile run/walk. That felt good and I have a long way to go before I’m back to normal.

The good news is I am in no rush. NROL for Abs is going to be my main focus in the next three months.

Yay me!

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